Yesterday I went to the beautiful wedding of my friend, Camry. She was definitely one of the most gorgeous brides I've ever seen! Her wedding gown looked amazing on her and her hair was perfect, along with her birdcage veil (love those). The wedding was in a great location that I've always wanted to visit and I was able to sit at a table full of friends from work.
Next weekend I have my friend, Kelle's, bachelorette party. I had to miss her wedding shower yesterday and can't make it to her wedding, so I am really looking forward to celebrating with her for at least one night.
And in two weeks, I will be celebrating my bestie, Nikki's, wedding. I can't wait! My sister and I are both bridesmaids and my parents are invited, so it will be great to be there as a family. It will also be a mini-reunion of high school friends, which I am totally looking forward to.
The good news about my crazy summer of weddings is that I love weddings. I love to see what decisions the bride makes, love to watch the couples' first dance and the father-daughter dance, love to see each wedding's theme, and love to see the joy of each couple.
My name is Carrie and I am addicted to Big Brother.
I need an intervention.
On Sunday, I caved and ordered Showtime 2 just so I could watch Big Brother After Dark, which is three hours every night. I also read live feeds of others who watch the houseguests on CBS all day. Crazy, I tell you. There must be something wrong with me when I just want to sit and watch people live in a house. They're not even that interesting. It's a bit boring. But, I am obsessed.
This weekend was really great. My sister came up for the weekend, which I was SO happy about! I got off at noon on Friday and spent the afternoon watching TV and eating junk food with my sister. It was great to just veg and chill.
Saturday we spent the morning by the pool with my friends Dana, Marci, Sarah, and Sarah's daughter, Amelia. It was a perfect summer day. Girl talk, tanning, and grabbing burgers before saying goodbye. That night Ash and I went to Sarah's for dinner and to have a Big Brother marathon of Big Brother After Dark on Showtime 2. I ran around and hung out with Amelia a lot and was completely exhausted! I loved every minute of it.
Sunday, Ashley and I had lunch and watched TV and then she headed home. We watched the Diane Sawyer interview of Jaycee Dugard. It breaks my heart, but is an amazing story. Jaycee's journey reminded me that the Lord will never give us more than we can handle. I am comforted by this.
Later that night, I said goodbye to my sister, and my roommate, Emily, and friend, Ilise, came home. The three of us hung out and watched "Step Up," the embarrassing dance movie of our time as roommates (this is my favorite scene). To this day, I still drool over Channing Tatum in that movie. We all kind of do.
It was great to spend the whole weekend with friends!
I've also been thinking about how blessed I am with the friends in my life. My friends are really fantastic. They give great advice, are good listeners, very kind, thoughtful, encouraging, and make me laugh to the point of tears.
This week I've also been thinking so much about answered payers and God's grace. God is so good. He provides when it's needed. He listens. He answers prayers. His timing is perfect. Of course, in many ways, this is always true, but in the life of a friend I was reminded of this today. Love God moments.
Okay, so my last post mentioned about the crappy week I was having... and it got worse...
First came the flies.
Then the heat (I know Texas family, it wasn't as bad as your heat).
Come Thursday my car was covered in rain drops of tree sap. By covered, I mean drops on the front, sides, and back, including windows. I read online about ways to clean them and used wet fabric softener sheets and rubbing alcohol. Then a drive through car wash.
Then came a plugged ear.
Home again to watch over this sweet little dog.
Then a trip to the urgent care... by myself... to get my ears flushed out and discover I have an ear infection.
The great news? Today is the start of a new week full of new opportunities and good things. And, my family is back from vacation!
I wrote on my Facebook wall tonight that I am tired of being brave.
I am. It's exhausting. 100%, completely and totally exhausting. Sometimes it's exhilarating and fun and exciting, but other times it is depressing, rough, and takes a lot of courage.
When I was little I would pray for courage every night before I went to sleep. Maybe I should start that again.
It started over the weekend. Ironically, celebrating Independence Day made me think about being independent and all it consists of at times. I was alone over the weekend at my parent's house with my adorable, but very old, dog, Lucy. Being alone is always an exercise of being brave for me. Especially at night. I'm sure you can relate.
Then I had this massive fly problem. Don't laugh. They were really big flies. And they seemed to be everywhere, even after I killed one, another would show up. I killed/trapped nine before I left. It took home-made remedies (thanks, Ilise) and a LOT of Raid spray. Nearly the whole can. Plus, I had to kill a spider. Then tonight, at my apartment, I had to kill some other bug. I hate summer for it's heat and for bringing out the bugs.
I get really grumpy when I'm too warm.
I am also being brave in a few things at work (including lots of important meetings/decisions without much support). There are a few other things too that require risk-taking and prayer.
I don't know. Sounds like I'm whining about being a grown up... maybe I am. But today, that's how I feel. Tired of being brave and just want to be rescued.
I need to follow my own example and just pray for courage to be brave and grown up. Why did we learn all the most important lessons in life before we were ten-years-old? Relieved to still be a child of God, no matter how many times I try to be a grown up and do life on my own.
P.S. If you believe in prayer, please pray for an opportunity that I am not able to talk about on my blog, but want prayer for. Nothing to be worried about, just a possible opportunity, but I know prayer leads to miracles. :)