Saturday, December 31, 2011

Happy New Year!

Goodbye 2011 and hello 2012!

This year was so much better than last year and I hope to say that again another year from now. In 2010, I finished my master's degree, bonded with extended family, had amazing family vacations in Palm Desert and New York, attended 6 out of 9 weddings I was invited to, dealt with two car accidents (one was Mom's and one mine), lost my beloved Lucy, gained a lot of confidence in handling life alone, turned 25 with good friends and in Vegas for the best time ever, and celebrated with the world over Will and Kate's wedding (looking back, I definitely don't regret taking the day off work to watch it). Overall, it has been a good year. 

My prayer for 2012 is less struggles for myself and those I love. To find a church by my apartment that I enjoy. To get a raise and more opportunities at work. To read more. To laugh as much as possible, spend lots of time with friends and family, and to give all the glory to God. 

May 2012 bring you many blessings. Thanks for sharing 2011 with me. 

Friday, December 30, 2011

Christmas: Disneyland, Big Bear, & Newport

Happy and merry! 

I have been enjoying having this whole week off from work and spending time with family and friends. Here is what I've been up to... 

Disneyland on the 22nd.

Big Bear for Christmas with the entire Tilton family. Loved seeing snow! I am not used to it and it was incredibly beautiful! I even made a snow angel. 

Newport and Balboa with my friends Teri and Teri (we make the Teri, Teri, and Carrie show!). 

While there, we saw DIANE KEATON! 

I like to say we all watched "We Bought A Zoo" together, even though she didn't exactly sit with us... she was seeing that movie. I literally gasped "Oh my gosh!" out loud when she came out of the restroom right in front of us. Honestly, we heard she was at the movies, and I guessed it was ours, so we didn't leave hoping to see her, and then we stayed until she and her friends and family drove away. Diane was very happy and full of laughter and smiles. People really left her alone, except one guy who asked "are you Diane Keaton?" and she stomped her foot, smiled, and said "ohhh! yes, I am." Later, she and her family/friends discussed where to go for dinner. She drove away in a black Range Rover with her son and his friend/cousin both safely in the back seat. Best moment of the week. I was speechless for a bit! 

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Rosie O'Donnell, Rick Perry, and the problem with America

I was recently watching The Rosie Show and she discussed and showed Rick Perry’s Strong video. I had not seen this video. I’ve heard rumblings about Rick Perry and his politics, but in this beginning primary season I have sort of stayed away from the Republican debates until candidates are thinned out closer to polling time. I admit, it is not the smartest political choice on my behalf, but at this time, watching the Republicans get bashed by the liberal media depresses me and makes me feel bad for being a white, middle class, Christian, Republican. If you think this is a bad reason, look no further than Rick Perry’s “Strong” video and its strong You Tube response. It is reportedly the most “disliked” video in You Tube history, which is saying a lot considering some of the lack of talent and lack of taste in uploaded videos these days.

Rick Perry’s video made me uncomfortable for a variety of reasons, most obviously because I am a born-again Christian who is a member of the Republican party (but I do land on the more moderate side, often referring to myself as a liberal Republican, I guess as opposed to a conservative Democrat). I get uncomfortable because I too feel that not only Obama (as Perry states in his video), but Democrats (and “liberals” in general) have continued to escalate a war on religion, specifically, born-again Christians. As a Christian, I do worry that someday I will no longer be allowed to openly attend church, discuss my religion at the workplace, say “under God” in the Pledge of Allegiance, have pastors who can be arrested for refusing to marry a gay couple, and no longer be allowed to say “Merry Christmas” in the month of December. This may sound extreme to some, but it really is not that far-fetched.

What is happening in America today is that as some people are being given more freedom, others are being given less. I will admit that the public voices “representing” Christianity today are voices that I too would like to give less freedom, however, laws and policies and cultural decisions being made to silence all Christian voices are hurting more “normal” people in this country, the general American public who don’t have microphones and podcasts and television platforms. People who don’t bully those who are gay or stand outside military funerals with cruel signs or ban the reading of Harry Potter in schools. These are normal, working class people, who believe in the truth of the Bible and want to attend church every Sunday morning (or Saturday night, like me). These are people you work alongside, grocery shop with, carpool with, and have never heard a hateful, anti-like comment from before. These are the people actually being hurt in the process of shutting down public – albeit disrespectful and ignorant – voices.

People hate what they don’t know. Until someone can have empathy for a different viewpoint, growth and unity can never happen. This is why the public right-wing “Christian” voices can be so hateful toward a gay person struggling to accept him/herself and feel welcomed by society. This is also why SNL can make fun of Christians, because they don’t know the real people attending church down the street. We are an American culture making opinions and laws based on exaggerated stereotypes. This has to stop. It can be stopped by ending hate on all sides – right and left – and seeking to know the other. Do not fear what you don’t understand, seek to learn about it. I am not asking everyone to agree with everyone else. I am not even advocating the “live and let live” philosophy. I am merely suggesting we step out of our box and understand the other. You don’t have to agree and support gay marriage, or even vote for it, to end bullying and hatred. You also don’t have to believe in God to understand that religious people can voice opinions too and that doesn’t make them hateful, ignorant, bigoted opinions.

I hope for a culture where all voices are heard and respected. Where gay couples can get married in a cooperating religious place, but pastors have the right to refuse without fear of hate or arrest. Where a woman can be a feminist and pro-life without feeling like a fraud. Where saying “I’m gay” does not exclude you from an opportunity and saying “I’m Christian” does not make you ignored. This is the kind of America I want to live in and that I believe is what our forefathers and mothers dreamed for us. This is the American vision that I will vote for and hope someday to be reflected in a presidential candidate. 

Tuesday, December 6, 2011


Mom and Dad had to put our beloved Lucy down today. I am so sad. Best dog in the whole world. So blessed to have had her in our lives. 

Thursday, December 1, 2011

If you want to laugh

Watch this clip from yesterday's The Chew. I am still dying with laughter about it. 

Blustery day

(the tree that fell outside the entrance to my work). 

Wooo! It is windy here! It has been Winnie the Pooh blustery. I swear that last night I thought my windows would bust open and I would fly into the sky. The sound it makes is the worst. I was up half the night listening to it and wondering if it would be as bad on the way to work (since I have a very light and small rental car right now). 

Driving to work, the winds had calmed, but there was debris every where. I swerved (slowly) many times to avoid tree branches and many stop lights were out. The local school districts and universities cancelled school, but of course, my institution did not. I am praying they will tomorrow, because tonight is supposed to be worse than last. 

The Santa Ana winds have never been this bad. I am not a fan of the Santa Ana winds. To me they mean fire season and dry skin. But I do have one romantic thought about them due to the movie White Oleander (one of my favorite movies). In the movie, the main character says that when she was younger her mother would ask her what she'd pack if the winds changed and fire threatened their house. Her mom told her if she was brave she wouldn't pack anything. That line has always stuck with me. 

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Accidents happen

(love Google's picture for today honoring Mark Twain and showing Tom Sawyer) 

This morning, while peacefully (and two minutes late) driving to work, I was rear ended at a stop light. I am fine (thank God), no one was hurt. Strangely enough, I wasn't even angry when it happened. Is that weird? I literally just thought "welp, here we go." That was it. I am still fascinated by my own response. 

(about the word "welp," this is a weird word that I rarely say aloud - for obvious reasons - but often think in my head)

The second interesting thing about the accident is that my first thoughts were about work. This is either insanely pathetic or qualifies me to get employee of the quarter for an entire year. Thought 1: "welp (there's that word again), there goes my student worker project for today. Thought 2: do you think work will call me to see why I'm so late? Thought 3: How mad will my boss be that I have to skip out today? Thought 4: I am not taking today off. Thought 5: I should call in and tell them I'll be late. 

Are any of those thoughts normal when you've been in an accident? I should have thought "thank God, I'm okay" or "I need to call my Dad" or "write down this man's license plate" or even "where is a cute police officer when you need one?" Of course, I did think all of those thoughts later (some much much later... like the hot cop, because he really wasn't needed.. although maybe a handsome guy in uniform is always wanted needed?). 

One of my other thoughts was relief that I could go to work and be comforted and helped by some wonderful women who I am so thankful for! My coworker, Cindy, even drove me to the collision repair shop. I am seriously blessed with some of my coworkers. 

My great sister drove me to get a rental car. And, my Dad, was an example of what every Dad should be in a daughter's crisis (as I knew he would be... my Dad excels in crisis mode). He helped me figure out what steps to take, let me do it on my own, and at the end of one of our (six) phone conversations ended the call by saying "you're doing great." That alone made the whole day worth it. 

Ironically enough, the man who hit me works where I work. I was nervous about driving the rental car, but actually really love it. And, the day really showed me how loved and cared for I am, which makes me so thankful for God's provision. 

Now, I am finishing this crazy unexpected day with a muscle relaxer for my back (thanks, Aunt Sue!) and literally laughing until I cry while watching today's The Chew. 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

The way it feels to be home

The way I know the roads without really seeing them. 
The way I park the car in the street.
The way the curve around the corner makes the corner of my mouth turn up.
The way I breathe when I open the door.
The way the windows glow.
The way the chair holds the pillow.
The way Lucy's tail wags.
The way I stop to pet her before even closing the front door.
The way it feels to hug my parents.
The way nothing has changed.
The way I notice a piece has shifted.
The way my room looks.
The way my bed feels.
The way I curl up to cuddle.
The way I go to bed early.
The way I fall asleep feeling safe. 
The way the shower feels foreign.
The way the carpet feels under my feet.
The way the door sounds when it closes.
The way it smells familiar.
The way the sounds surround me.
The way the pictures comfort me.
The way it's exactly the same and completely different.
The way it feels to be home.  

Monday, November 21, 2011

Christmas came early

(Small World decked out)

Christmas seems to be coming early this year. The weather is wonderfully cold, radio stations are already playing  constant Christmas music, and Black Friday deals have began to pop up, all before Thanksgiving. 

I love it! 

I am really feeling the Christmas spirit this year. It is a special time, full of family, scripture, songs, and lights. The best part about Christmas is that every where you visit has something Christmas-focused. My work decorates, Disneyland is covered (I just got a pass for this year!), and stores are decked out. It's wonderful. 

Thanksgiving is Thursday and I am looking forward to being home with the family for a long weekend. It's been a while since I've been home. I hope to cook Thanksgiving Part II again this year and the family and I will decorate for Christmas. It will be eventful, to say the least. 

Thursday, November 17, 2011


Yesterday I met author Lauren Winner. I recently finished her book "Girl Meets God" for an undergraduate book club I help lead (and really enjoyed it). Lauren was so smart and quirky. She was exactly what I expected and yet so different than I expected. In her book, she is honest and incredibly intelligent and warm. In person, she is even smarter, with a big vocabulary and vast knowledge of many topics. 

Listening to her speak reminded me of when I went to meet Anne Lamott. Both are quirky and witty and very smart. Both intimidate me with their intelligence and vocabulary. Both are not very into fashion or make up (but beautiful). It's as if they are so focused on what is in their head (brilliance), that the outer appearance is much less important. I love that about them. Each is a very strong, smart, accomplished woman. 

It is fascinating to meet people whose words have affected and changed your own life. They are so normal and so profound that you can't help but analyze their every move and word. It makes me wonder what other writers are like. It also makes me want to be one. 

Speaking of being a writer, I wrote a piece for my friend's great website, All Groan Up, and would love for you to check it out here.  

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

CMA Awards

Currently watching the CMAs.

I love Brad Paisley and Carrie Underwood. They have such great chemistry. They are Barbie and Ken of country music. 


Monday, November 7, 2011

Happy Fall Daylight Time

Yesterday we ended Daylight Savings Time. What do you call that day? I should Google it. I Google everything, did you know that? It's the Strengths Quest test "learner" and "input" in me. I have become completely obsessed with all things Google lately... Gmail, Google Chrome, its apps, etc. I'm a bit of a tech nerd at work these days. 

Anyway, this weekend Fall really came and I welcomed her with open arms! I love Fall and Winter. I don't like to run errands after dark, but I do enjoy driving home from work in the dark  to see all the cute houses with their warm lights shining through uncovered windows. I like to imagine a family, making dinner, cozy and warm inside a cute home. I pray for my future and future family when I pass these homes. I think about the cozy homes I was raised in and family dinners. 

I rang in Fall with a lazy weekend, listening to the rain, wearing cozy socks, and baked oatmeal cookies (via Pioneer Woman... they were amazing and Ash liked them too!). It was a lovely weekend. 

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Guilt disease

I have a disease, it's called GUILT. 

(definition found here). 

Overview: a condition of the entire self that causes insecurity, tears, anger, depression, and uncertainty. Can affect any age and gender, may be genetic, may also be contagious. Affects most people between ages six and death. Guilt causes frustration in self and others, paranoia, and missed opportunities. May lead to living life out of fear, living life according to others and ignoring oneself.   

Symptoms: people pleasing, perfectionism, insecurity, depression, anxiety, insomnia, and frustration. 

Diagnosis: Guilt is the product of trying to please others. It is often a symptom of perfectionists and those trying to keep people happy. It occurs when a person stops listening to themselves and what they want and starts listening to others and their own "could's, would's, should's." It also happens when a person feels there is no right answer, or easy decision, to be made. 

Treatment: Prayer. Listening to one's self. Learning to differentiate between real and false interpretations of situations. Talking to trusted friends or counselors. Letting go. 

Managing: Pro and con lists may help identify decision-making factors. Sleep always helps relieve pressure and stress, which calms guilt. Asking for advice and listening to your intuition. People who learn to manage guilt lead much healthier and happier lives.  

(a fun WebMD-like post because I am fueled by guilt today). 

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Morning TV

As you well know, I love TV. I've had the flu since Monday and spent yesterday and Monday home from work, reading, and watching TV. I re-discovered some lovely shows that I began to really like while in NYC because my Mom and I had very lazy mornings. 

So, what am I watching?

Access Hollywood Live (NBC) - it might be my favorite morning show right now. Billy and Kit have a very fun chemistry and they are hilarious. I also think they are two of the most down to earth TV hosts. 

Today Show with Kathie Lee and Hoda (NBC) - I really like Hoda. Kathie Lee and Hoda are too funny and I like hearing about their personal lives and weekend activities. Plus, they drink booze before noon!

The Chew (ABC) - I just discovered this how this week. I really didn't think I'd like it, but I do! It's talk show meets food network, what could be better? Through this show, I've been "introduced" to Daphne Oz (Dr. Oz's daughter). She is adorable. She's also my age, which gives me a bit of jealous, panic, and insecurity about my own life. 

That's the wrap up! I still tune into The View and Regis and Kelly, but my interest in both is a bit fickle depending on the celebrity. But these other three, I tune in for the morning talk, not just celebrities. 

This whole week has led to a new dream job of being a TV morning show cohost. I'd get to interview celebrities and talk about my weekends, what could be better? 

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Cookies and Potatoes

I spent most of today in the kitchen. I've had the desire to cook/bake this weekend, so today I decided that is what I'd do. Three stores, new bowls, new containers, buying every baking ingredient, and $80 later, I was ready. I set up my laptop in the kitchen to read the recipes and played Christmas music!

I baked Peanut Butter Oatmeal White Chocolate Chip cookies first. They turned out well, but I don't love the taste of them. Apparently, I am not a fan of butterscotch (I put butterscotch chips in because I couldn't find peanut butter ones), either that or I don't like cookies who are too sweet, something about brown sugar maybe? I don't know. I am new to all of this. I also decided I wanted them with more oatmeal. The cookie dough wasn't amazing and that was my first sign that I wasn't wild about the cookies. So, my new philosophy is that if you don't like the cookie dough, you won't like the cookie. 

(movie quote break: "he wants a woman who's not afraid of his dark chocolate layer") 

Next, I made Hasselback Potatoes. It is basically just a fancy looking version of a baked potato. they have been all over Pinterest, so I checked it out. They were pretty good. I used a ton of butter and kosher salt to eat them. I also didn't bake them long enough. I would make these again and be a grown up pair them with some kind of steak or something. 

The good news about both baked/cooked items: they passed the taste test of my sister! It is always a good sign when you're not the only one who likes what you made (because I am biased to my own food... and my worst critic). 

Today was yet another day of attempting things that scare/intimidate me. 

(all recipes originally found on this amazing blog). 

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Small steps

People say you should do one thing a day that scares you. For a person with severe anxiety and fear, sometimes just an average day is a day facing fears. Other times, I can do something a little more brave. 

Lately, I feel I've been growing stronger in trying to be brave. There are situations that I have to face head on and be smart about them, by trying something new and breaking my patterns. Patterns are comfortable, but not always helpful or beneficial. 

Small steps toward facing fears or breaking patterns are all that is needed. I don't think progress is made through giant leaps. I believe one foot in front of the other, only looking at the path ahead, is when real progress is made. 

It is starting to get dark early. It is the one draw back to my favorite seasons (Fall and Winter). As soon as it gets dark I tend to think only bad things happen. I suddenly hate going to run errands after work because it's dark, or meeting friends for dinner because it's dark, and I always feel like I have to go to bed earlier because it's dark. None of these things need to be true. Even when it's dark, it's only 7pm. EARLY. 

So, to avoid my pattern of being afraid of the dark, I went to the grocery store at 7:20 tonight. It is only on the next corner (baby steps), but it seemed liked a big deal to me. 

Puppy love

I got some sad news today. My family and I have to put our beloved dog, Lucy, down. Not today or tomorrow, maybe not even soon, but it is our best option for her benefit. I hate it. I've cried about it. I've been mad. I've tried to rationalize it, but it's just sad. But, it has to be done and is probably for the best. Lucy is nearly completely deaf, she has cataracts and will lose her sight completely, but we don't know when, however, she hasn't lost it yet. She has little trembles, which are due to weak back legs, due to losing muscle tone. And, she is 13 years old, which is pretty old for a dog (about 90 human years old). 

Lucy is the sweetest dog in the whole world. Nearly everyone who has ever met her thinks the same thing. It's not just me. I grew up afraid of animals. I was chased by dogs as a kid and never really liked them (or any animal) in the first place. My family always thought about getting a dog but I always vetoed it. But then, one day my mom called our house and left a message (the days before cell phones) for Dad, Ash, and I to come to a grocery store and see some puppies. We went and I dreaded it because I knew I would have to say no again and be the bad guy. We got there, saw some cute puppies, and then... crazily enough... I sat down in the pen and held Lucy. She was so sweet and calm. I said yes. The people we adopted her from said to give her a clothing item that smelled like us and so we gave her my sweatshirt. Lucy drove home in my lap. 

I hid from her for the next six months. It was a process of getting over my fear of dogs. Over the years, I have become less afraid of them.

Lucy has quite possibly been the best gift our family has ever known. She is sweet, good natured, gentle, loyal, and even trained her own self to poo in the hill so we didn't have to pick it up. She is not a huge fan of walks, unless our pet sitter is taking her, and she isn't great at fetch, although she is excellent at tearing apart tennis balls. She loves to do yard work with Dad, eat popcorn and Sunday breakfast and pizza crust. She loves to lay by the fireplace. It takes her a good 24 hours to eat when Dad is gone on a business trip. He is her favorite and she is his favorite. Lucy lays in front of my sister's door every morning when she's home. Lucy sits by Mom when she sews. She lets me kiss her head and tell her I love her several times a day. 

Saying goodbye to Lucy will be very difficult. I am most afraid of how Dad will react. They are pals like I have never seen before and life apart will take some major adjustment. I don't know what to do when my Dad cries, because it rarely happens. Mom, Ash, and I on the other hand cry pretty regularly (okay, I cry the most). I know many people have lost pets and I know several have had to make the difficult decision of putting them down. Your prayers are appreciated. I hate goodbyes and I really hate that Lucy can't talk and tell us she loves us. I am a big believer in hearing "I love you." 

I don't know when we're putting Lucy down, but definitely by the beginning of next year, if not before then. We are thinking we'd like to have her around for Christmas, but we'll see. 

I will miss Lucy more than words can say. 

Post edit: Many were confused by this post... Lucy is still alive, but the decision to put her down is one that we will make over the next few weeks/months. 

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

On teaching

Today I presented my master's capstone project about women in leadership to an undergraduate leadership class. This is the second semester I've had this opportunity. One of my former professors asked me (God bless him). I really appreciate the opportunity and I love talking about a subject I love. 

The experience is always a bit nerve wracking, intimidating, and exhilarating. I am learning to be a bit more comfortable and I've learned that I much prefer answering questions and discussing than just presenting (which is exactly what kind of student I am). Both times I've talks to the class there is always one token guy who agrees with what I am saying and asks real questions and starts a dialogue I would love to continue. There's also a token girl, both times, who looks at me and asks about the idea that women were created by God to be helpers and not leaders. It is an honest question, so I appreciate and respect it. Both times, there are those students who have glazed over eyes and are probably thinking about how ridiculous it is that they are listening to me speak. It is a fascinating dynamic. 

And, I think I love it. 

I love trying to teach these students about something that matters. I love trying to start dialogues. I love that when I leave I feel invested in them and responsible for their growth. I also love talking about women in leadership and gender and organizational ethics. 

I just love academia. There really is no denying that fact. 

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Young and beautiful

I love old pictures. Love them. Especially ones of my parents and their family and friends. Recently, I dug some up at a friend's BBQ after hearing hilarious stories and dying to see proof that my parents were once young (kidding, Mom, kidding). I showed them to my sister tonight and realized that the pictures below are of the same decade of my parents' lives that I am currently navigating. Makes me wonder about the future and which friends I will still know at that time. 

My mom and Scott.

Nancy and Scott - love this picture. 

My adorable parents.
LOVE this picture of my parents. Just love it. So cute. 

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

New York City!

I would have blogged about my lovely trip to NYC sooner, but I took way too many pictures and then had to choose a small number for this blog! 

It was a great trip. I wasn't as sad to leave this time, but still considered moving there. I mostly enjoyed spending time with my parents and loved being able to see other loved ones while visiting! 

Here is some of what I did... 

Survived the flight.

Spent the first day with my cousins Katie and Megan. 

Ate and shopped at Eataly... It was amazing. Definitely the best meal of the whole trip. 

Spent time with my cousin, Julie, at Eataly.

Went to Rockefeller Center and they were having a special USA fire fighter exhibit. 

Visited St. Thomas and St. Patrick's cathedrals. These pictures are from St. Thomas. I took tons. It was beautiful. The statue of Mary and Jesus was amazing and so moving. I loved it. 

Ate at the Central Park Boathouse. Really loved being there. 

Visited my favorite future house. Love this home so much. I see it nearly every time I visit. Don't you love the red door? I try to imagine what it must look like inside. 

Visited Times Square. It really has a magic all its own apart from the City in general. My Dad and I went to the M&M store, which feels more like a small amusement park. It was really cool. 

Looked out the window of our hotel... often. 

Stalked the people in the offices across the street. Imagined what they do and how it would be to live in the City. 

The weather was three of the four seasons while we were there. It was 85 the first two days and then 75 and then rainy and high 60's. This picture is of how bright it was one night because the lights of the tall buildings were reflecting off the clouds and illuminated the night. It was amazing. 

I went to see The Ides of March, which was playing across the street, at the same theater where the premier was held (meaning George Clooney and I have stood in the same place... haha). I gave the movie a 6.5 out of 10, but Ryan Gosling was incredible. He makes the movie. 

Met up for lunch with my friend, Anna. we've been friends since we were in junior high and it was great to get to see one another since we've lived in separate states for about ten years. 

I explored Central Park for a couple hours and took nearly 100 pictures. It is still my favorite place in the whole city. It is beautiful and peaceful and unique. While I was there, I saw joggers, tourists, two little kids racing around, a few people meeting for an art class, and there was a man playing the saxophone. It was a wonderful end to my trip. 

Thursday, October 13, 2011

New York, NY

Hello from the East Coast! I am in New York City this week and loving it! Today it is damp and cloudy, but half the week was 80 degrees and sunny. I love that in one week I can experience seasons, considering it is about 100 degrees back home.

I've been busy everyday, but taken lovely slow mornings. I've also been able to see my three cousins and a good friend of mine. It's also been nice spending time with my parents. Been eating amazing food and got to see Central Park yesterday, which is still my favorite place in the city! Have not spotted any celebrities yet, but I am keeping my eyes open.

Will update you when I get home and tell you all about my trip. I have plenty of pictures to post too!

Prayers for a safe flight.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Emily's wedding

My good friend and (recently former) roommate, Emily, got married this weekend. It was so surreal. Emily and I have been friends for over 7 years and have been roommates for 4 of those years. She has been my family in LA. We've grown and changed and bonded through personal trials, school, roommates, figuring out setting up utilities, family challenges, and lots of laughter. For many years, Emily was the person I talked to about singleness the most. She is a strong woman of God and has been a great support to me over the years.

Watching her marry George, the love of her life, was nothing short of wonderful. I was so proud to stand up with them. They have set an amazing example of a relationship centered around God, focused on purity, and full of selflessness. I have loved being a part of their love story (I sort of introduced them and supported George in asking Em out).

The wedding was beautiful. They got married at the Point Loma naval base and you could literally hear the ocean waves next to us. I had a great time with the other bridesmaids and loved spending time with Em's niece and baby nephew. It was also great to see good friends I haven't seen in a while.

The whole day was just lovely and low key, much like George and Em.

(top photo "borrowed" from friends on facebook).

Disneyland with family

Two weeks ago I met my Texas family at Disneyland. It was great to finally meet all the babies! You know me and my love of babies.

Biggest bummer of the day was that I missed the Jessica Alba sighting!


Well, I did it, I got my bangs back! Funny how I had them for so long, yet now that they're back I don't recognize myself. Ironically, I didn't recognize myself without them also. I'm glad their back.

Monday, September 26, 2011

three's company

break from TV

needing to release

too much stress

change is unavoidable

with no one

craving alone time

white picket fence

transition as celebration

friends are coming

please come sooner

Wednesday, September 21, 2011


I am hoping this post is better late than never, but it seems to me that the moment has passed. However, for my loyal readers (shout out to Michaela and Sonya), here is my Emmy rundown...

Favorite moment: the fake pageant with the nominees for best actress in a comedy. Loved that Amy Poehler led the group in going on stage. It was so unexpected and hilarious. I loved that Melissa McCarthy won as well! Loved her in Gilmore Girls and glad to see her getting some recognition.

Favorite win: Downton Abbey! I was so glad to see a Masterpiece theater selection win for so many movie/miniseries categories. Almost gives me more faith in humanity Hollywood that PBS can win over HBO (it's all very David and Goliath). Hope to see more of that (the show and the win). If you haven't seen Downton Abbey and you like period pieces, you need to rent it!

Favorite dresses: I enjoyed seeing all the high necks and cap sleeves this year! I also loved all the red.

As usual, Lea Michele was my favorite, because I do look to her as a fashion icon.

Kate Winslet also rocked the red.

And, strangely enough, I really like Amy Poehler's dress too (but for me, in a different color).

As well as Dianna Argon’s (from Glee).

And, although I didn't necessarily notice their fashion, the Charlie's Angles actresses were gorgeous and definitely having them walk the red carpet together was great marketing (yes, I am taping that tomorrow).

Favorite speeches: None really stood out that much for me, but I am always glad to listen to speeches by Julianna Margulies and Kate Winslet. They are so classy and well-educated. I am always impressed by them as women.

Favorite celebrities: Claire Danes. Kate Winslet. Lea Michele. Katie Holmes. Love when movie actors grace the Emmy’s.